Hidayah

2011-01-06T20:35:00.002+08:00

just take note that i'll not be using this blog anymore. i decided not to delete this blog and let it be.

i'm on onsugar @mfcknjdy.onsugar.com .

and i'm sorry i dont link. i dont mind if you remove my link from your blog.

Happy New Year!

2010-08-22T19:11:00.005+08:00

littledudette.onsugar.com

you dont have to relink me :)

i'm still here peeps!

2010-08-20T15:07:00.003+08:00

when i was walking towards the D&T block, there's a puddle of water and there's three sec five guys yang giler babi suruh aku gan atika pijak, dhe cakap tu magic water. kau pijak la dulu. Hahahaahahahahaha. So.. kasi drumroll sikit. K da? Da. HAHAHA. So today went to school, took the 6.35 bus. Thank God i didnt take the later one, cause it was raining so heavily at that time. Yknow, my school rlly have to put a shelter. The rain was heavy when i stepped into the school gate, and the nearest block is the D&T block, but its a approx. 3m from the get and i fucking get wet. Yang sepatutnye da sampai skula selamat, ni basah. Nak lari pun, kalau jatuh lagi buat hal. K, so first period was music and it was boring that i fell asleep till music period ends+15mins of CME period. I didnt even know that Mr Tan actually went out. Tido mati.. The extra 15mins, Mdm Zubaidah blum sampai. So yeah, no one bothered me. So after that was recess. Went to Atika's class and we walked around the school. As stated above, we walked towards the D&T block and bumped to three sec 5 guys and the magic water thingy. lol. seriously. lol. Then went to the library. Bah, my recess this month is goddam boring. So after that was Geog. Partner work. Partnered with Cynthia ♥ Instead of completing our work, we talked more. Heh. After that was English. Received my English results and i passed. Yes, a just pass. Well, nevermind, i shud do better for EOY. Insyallah, Amin. So my results is....... *drumrolls* 17/30 Haha. I still dont know my overall marks. So yeah. Haha. After that, i went home. I didnt went for cca. Malas de. Sesape nak marah, lantak ar. So nao i'm here..... Haha. Btw, if you realize, this post is written in with malay language. Malas de mawu type all in english nari. I'll be away tmr and i'll be back on Sunday in the evening. Celebrating sister's birthday at Johor. So byebyeeeeeee, i think i'm gonna change my blogskin. Bye!

2010-08-17T14:19:00.003+08:00

i thought of me and not how it'd be to watch you walk away

Hi, since i have the time and i am bored, i'll update.

So first period was maths and i left a question(which i think look simple but idk the formulae) and another bonus question. And the last two question, the first step, i copied Iqmal. Hehe. So after that was Science. I was like, "alamak muke cikgu tu lagi!" cause i fought with her during ytd's lesson. K whatever, i dont want to elaborate about it. And after that, recess. It was boring.... Yknow, fasting, so yeah. It was Literature aft that. I was sleepy and almost fell asleep, and it was two periods. Two fucking periods. And after that was malay lesson. Took common test. And then english period. It was ok. Iqmal was goddam irritating. So, after that, went straight home. Went home a period earlier. So i'm gonna shower and start revising for tmr's common test.

So, btw, i know this post is not long enough but at least i made an effort to update. K bye!

2010-08-15T11:09:00.004+08:00

Uploaded by request. Mine's the caramel color. (the last bag)

So, i went to Johor ytd and bought the stuffs i need. Contact lens, pens, and that bag. Watched The Last Airbender and it was fucking awesome. Well i didnt watch it in 3D tho. I want to be the waterbender. So yeah, reach home and had break fast. I had KFC. So, today, my Sahur was boring. Went for madrasah and watched a movie about Rasulullah.

I really have nothing much to say. I dont know when i'll be updating again. Common test's around the corner, so yeah. Bye!

2010-08-10T01:00:00.004+08:00

i cant stop playing this goddam song and it reminds me of my fucking ex. why the fuck must you even exist in my life? this song was when we're falling apart. yes, apart. the time when i thought i can fix things soon but it wasnt as easy as i thought. you left me when we are getting better. you just love to make things worst. well i just hate the fact that you fucking exist. i know that memories are not meant to be forget, but it's also not meant to be remembered.

Yknow, it's 1.10am right nao, and i cant fall asleep. my eyes are still strong enough. well my heart felt kinda weak, due to lack of sleep these two weeks. i hate nightmares.

xoxo

2010-08-09T08:06:00.004+08:00

Happy 45th Birthday Singapore.

& of course, Happy 20mthsary!

Raudhah's coming over later to bake cupcakes. This Bobby gone MIA.

k byeeeeee

2010-08-06T17:05:00.002+08:00

Went to Tamp Int and it was such a waste of time, i went back to Eunos right after i reached Tamp cause Raudhah called me. Slacked with Rau, bob, matul and mas. Nat passed by for awhile and she went off. Took pictures. Halimatul went home. Mas went home and rau, bob and I went to Ubi. Bought french fries and slacked at 346. Nageeb and Afizul came. Bob and I left. Went to 336. Khai called. Khai, Dan and Dzul came, bob went home. Slacked till 3.40pm. Oh yeah, National Day celebration wasnt that bad. K bye

2010-08-05T17:24:00.003+08:00

hi, immature friend of mine. i dont understand you and i will never want to try to understand. i think you're getting beyond the limit and i cant tolerate it anymore.

1) you are irritating 2) i am too but not as irritating as you 3) you just cant be responsible 4) you dont appreciate

PS, i'll still accept you as my friend. i think you deserve a second chance(if you want it) because you are not mature enough to make a decision and i hope by this post you'll understand. (if you realise i use 'friend' instead of 'bitch' cause you are not a bitch, its just that you are immature) i'm sorry cause i scold you and i seriously dont care what you think about me, because you are not my only friend. i seriously have no time to bother about our friendship, cause i think you dont, but like what i've said, you still deserve a second chance. if you want it. i still take you as my friend.

basically i had fun today. Iqmal made me laugh the whole day. And i know his secretssssss and some of it are hilarious! :B Had Lit test after school, it was ok but my answers all messed up. Slacked with Adillah and Fahmi aft that. K bye.

2010-08-04T16:15:00.004+08:00

I always needed time on my own, i never thought i'd need you there when i cry

And the days feel like years when i'm alone

Do you see how much i need you right nao.

i miss you

2010-08-02T03:39:00.002+08:00

i'm just slowly dying here inside. trying to let go.

2010-08-01T10:28:00.003+08:00

I dont understand what's the meaning of my dream last night. But i dislike it. Cause again, i dont know who the fuck is the guy in my dream is. I cant rmb his face. It happened all the time. I never have the chance to rmb how his face look like. Well, i also hate some parts. How can this guy(which i wont tell you who) be in my dream. He's just a fucking stranger.

Come back to me when you know just how you feel

Baby it's not supposed to hurt this way

2010-07-31T20:54:00.004+08:00

i seriously hate it when my hopes are the things that actually put me down.

i hate it when i cant control myself.

i hate it when everything's not right. i hate it when i made the wrong choices and regret.

i hate it when i fall for someone i dont wish to.

how i wish i can choose who to fall for.

i hate how easily we met. but i hate it more when i can hardly get you off my mind.

i hate the fact that everything must end with a goodbye.

i hate it when everything i do reminds me of you.

i hate it when you walk pass by me and i go crazy.

i hate to know that i will never have the courage to tell you that i admire you so much.

i hate it when everyone tell me to forget you.

i hate it when i always look out for you.

sometimes crying is the only best solution. leave me alone

2010-07-31T18:11:00.003+08:00

i dont go crazy on guy selebs like other girls do, well except for some. And it's less than five.

Well so as you can see i didnt update this blog. I rlly have nothing to say. Went to Tamp Sec today. Well it wasnt that fun but nevermind, i get a free yoyo. Ok i sound so pathetic. Saw some online friends and old friends thr. Aft that off to Halimatul's crib. So yeah, bye. Dont bother reading my blog anymore, i'm just plain lazy to post a long long post like i used to. Bye

2010-07-26T17:10:00.004+08:00

fucking attention seekers _|_

Today was fun. Laugh all the way with Iqmal. Haha, kekek sia sumpah.

Me: OH MY DARLING I LOVE YOU!

Iqmal: *continues singing the song in tamil!* (HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

The way he sing was fucking hilarious. And i keep calling him Kembar and he's kinda irritated. He thinks that he's the only handsome one on Earth wtf. He said that he's handsome but it's just that he dont like to look handsome in school. Wtf la kau Iqmal. Ok back to topic. He look fucking same with this Sec 3 guy. I am not gonna state the Sec 3 guy name. And i've heard that my classmates attacked him on Friday telling him that he fucking look like Iqmal? LOL. Ok i'm off, bye.

2010-07-25T11:43:00.005+08:00

A best friend like you is impossible to find. (:

love you besty. (L)

2010-07-24T22:32:00.003+08:00

I love Glee's songs, but i dont watch their episodes. So let's start with my story.

More photos but too lazy to upload. +moremoremore pictures with Raudhah.

Went for Hazel's bdae party @Downtown East. Happy Birthday in advanced Hazel! Last long with your boyf. :DDD I'm too tired to elaborate. Reached home at 10pm. Tired, k bye.

2010-07-24T11:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it takes only a guy, to change your life.

A guy known as your ex-boyfriend.

Meeting Raudhahbesty in an hour time, and i've not showered. And i'm sorry to Masitho, i woke up late that we need to cancel jogging for the second time because of me.

July is coming to an end.

2010-07-23T21:01:00.009+08:00

Wish you were here.

Happy Birthday Ashyraff babipie! :DDDDD A year olderr a year wiser. Go stop your fucking habits ok! We stop our habits together ok babi. I'm so sorry for all the mistakes i've did to you in the past haha yknow small fightssss.( i still take it as your fault ok da jangan carik pasal lagi) I miss you babi. :'( But dunwann meet you lar, later earthquake.) Ok here's some lyrics from a song which i've changed. Haha.

And i could tell you, your favourite colour's green

You love to argue, born on the twenty third

Your sister's beautiful

You have your father's eyes (betul ke tak? haha)

and if you ask me if i love him i wont lie!

Haha, love yous bestyyyyy. (ok it sounds like betty!)

Please dont call me at midnight. Talking to you in the middle of the night make me crazy.

Once again, Happy Birthday babi. <3

K one last song

I love you, you love me(???)

We're bestfriends like friends shud be

With a great big hug (hugs. aww.)

and a kiss from me to you (tkpe ni tk perlu)

Wont you say you love me too?

Oi, i still not puas with youuuuuuuuuuuu come come come Eunos and meet me. You stay so far, dont expect me to go all the way from Eunos to your place. I malas. K bye luvvyousssss Ahcyrap. (acap so common go change your name ok Ahcy! :P)

with lovesssss

2010-07-22T19:03:00.002+08:00

I'm doing this thirty days challenge letter thingy in tumblr and i love it. I dont know whether it's ok to express my feelings in there but well.. nevermind. Go read my tumblr for thirty days without fail ok. Today was ok. But too much dramas during art lesson. Got scolded, but ended up with some hilarious scenes.. Haha.

I promised not to love someone because I'm not ready yet then you came into my life and all has changed. I left my promise untrue cause I can't help the fact that I'm in love with you.

2010-07-21T14:51:00.003+08:00

"and all i have it a memory of what was; so let's pretend it never mattered to us."

Sometimes you are left with no choice but to sacrifice your own feelings for your loved ones. That includes losing another someone you truly love.

Geog, PE, recess, Science, Maths, PC, Assembly. Was ok except for science, revathy will never fail to call my name every lesson. I slept for a good ten minute but she woke me up, fucker. PE was ok, 2.4km, failed. Whatever who cares. I'm so sorry Setiana cause i cant accompany you just nao aft school, i'm tired. So today's most funny sentence i've heard was from Haziq. During PE lesson.

Haziq: Pass ke fail?

Me: Fail.

Haziq: PASS KE FAIL?

Me: FAIL!

Haziq: Kan, daddy da suruh lari tanak. (-,-)

Me: Daddy eh. Kau suruh aku lari time timing nak kat 18minutes, biol!

Uhh k, i'm feeling quite sad nao....................................... cause i didnt see Dia. Uhhh k bye

2010-07-20T20:02:00.002+08:00

"it's the simple things in life, that we never forget. it's those words, we wish we never said."

This first two days of the weeks wasnt that bad. Full of laughters and yknow girls little fights. Haha. Those are the moments i so love about school. I highlighted my fringe dark purple. It's not permanent, but well its kinda nice, and i think it would be nicer if its in pink! Oh yeah Kak Pah gave me kit kat chocolate. Awww, sayang kau k kak pah! c: Well afterall, i guess the most boring lesson is Malay Lang. Not to forget literature too. We're doing poems, which i kinda love, but i would love it more if i can learn to do malay poems instead of english. My geography book is right in front of me with a highlighter, but i only highlighted two points from just nao. Boring. I've done maths homework but in the textbook it self, err i left my hwbk in school. I cant be bothered to do english journal, the newspaper article is fucking long and it's so not interesting for a teenager! Teacher went thru the article on Monday but who cares, it's boring. I need to go to the school library to extand the due date of the book i'm currently reading. It's about an abandoned child. I love this author Jane Elliott, and i'm looking abother two books written by her. Well i dont know why but i suddenly love to read books about abandoned child. I feel sad about them, but what can i do? Well just pray the best for them. There's team challenge on Monday. Well i have a feeling it would not turn out to be good but well, let's just hope for the best. So to end this post, i want to tell you that i'm just glad that i have the mood to post about what the fuck is happening in my life lately. And oh btw, to all my followers from tumblr, follow me back again @innocentlittleheart.tumblr.com. Same goes to my twitter, follow me too @twitter.com/hiddyyy

I deleted both my tumblr and twitter account and create a new one just because i got pissed with the background and some unreasonable reasons... So i'll end everything here, bye

2010-07-19T18:58:00.004+08:00

Love is never fair.
You'll love someone you know who'll never give love in return. It only gives you unbearable pain.

The way my heart beats when i see you, the way i daydream in the class thinking of you. I wonder when will you get out of my mind, and ofcourse, my heart. My innocent little heart which never expect to fall in love with you, but it just did.

2010-07-18T19:20:00.005+08:00

"People change and things go wrong, but always rember that life goes on."

do you ever stop & think that maybe you should have said something? maybe that one moment could have turned everything around, and maybe, just maybe, he'd be yours?

Sometimes we shud just give it a try, take those chances and give our everything.
Take chances, a lot of them. cause honestly, no matter where you end up, & with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are, you learn & grow with each choice you make, everything is worth it. say how you feel - always. Be you, & be okay with it.

XOXO

2010-07-18T10:16:00.011+08:00

I dont believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now.

There are many things that i would like to say to you but i dont know how.

How i wish i can tell my feelings towards you without getting anyone hurt. Anyone includes me. But there's too many things which make it impossible. Maybe you are not the one for me.

I need someone who will hold me at my weakest, look at me at my ugliest & a heart that would love me at my worst.

I guess i shud change my skin. Everyone's complaining to me that they cant see my post. Leceh. K bye.

2010-07-17T18:56:00.004+08:00

I love sunflowers more than anything.

You know, my blog is getting boring, and i've got some requests to make my blog like an advice blog or whatever they call it. Well i dont know, i advice but me myself have problems with myself. So people will think like i am a girl who advice but me myself cant advice myself yknow smth liddat. So yeah it's kinda weird. But if you need help just ask me thru formspring @formspring.me/hidyayaaaa Hopefully i can do my best to answer your questions and help your problems yknow. So yeah. Leave atleast a nickname eg. girl02 or whatever your nickname is so that in case if your qns appear to be the same as someone else, i can state your nickname.

I'm looking for a blogskin decorated with sunflower background with blue sky. A simple one. I'm too lazy to edit my skin so might as well find the ready ones. So yeah bye.

2010-07-17T09:26:00.002+08:00

I love Baking Life. :>

Since it's still early in the morning, i have no stories. My life is boring anw, unlike primary school times, i always have millions of stories to tell. I guess i'll just post again later, well i dont know. Bye

2010-07-16T15:39:00.003+08:00

"I know that years from now, thoughts of you will still keep me awake at night."

I never think of you, but you're always on my mind.
I dont like it when i fall for someone, but they'll never know it, thinking that we are impossible.
I can't tell you what you mean to me. You're my constant, my consistency.

I think i shud forget you but everytime i try, the more i'll be thinking about you.

2010-07-16T14:06:00.002+08:00

disini aku masih sendiri, merenungi hari-hari sepi. aku tanpamu... masih tanpamu.

uhhh hi. I'm supposed to be in sch waiting for netball to start, but i am at home right nao. Sprain my ankle on tuesday during netball. It wasnt that pain on tuesday so yeah and nao my right leg right side bengkak. What is bengkak in english? Swollen? Sounds kinda weird but well whatever. When is fasting month gonna come. Come, come faster come! K, i'm gonna have my spaghetti nao, bye.

2010-07-15T16:46:00.005+08:00

Doesnt mean i'm being nice to someone i dont like i'm fake.
It just mean that i can tolerate my feelings towards them.
Get that right.

Sup hommies. Went home straight after school. Nowadays i seriously dont have the mood the stayback and yeah. CA2's coming, i'll be good then. I hate thursday's timetable. It was geog, science, maths, lit, art and mother tongue. Boring isnt. So right nao i have nothing to say, and i guess i want to 'speaking' jap.

In a relationship -> 1-2months later -> Single -> 1-2days later -> In a relationship ....... (goes on)

Fuyoh, baek pe ex aku yang satu ni. Good job bro, *claps* So you call them 'sayang', say 'i love you'. whoa, you punye love skejap ehh you. bape hari je da tak love pastu love orang laen. get the right definition of love right first, and then say it, and mean it. I hate the fact that you were my ex, but i had fun with you just two weeks before you left me. I still rmb every single thing and you didnt. Thanks for the memories.

i dont believe you

2010-07-14T18:56:00.002+08:00

Hii, i'm back. Was busy the last few days and didnt actually have the time to update. Oh yeah, i've changed my blogskin to a darker colour. It's still simple, but i love it. Changed my tagboard too. Forgotten the last tagboard's username, so i cant change to tagboard colour and white doesnt match this blogskin colour. I guess i'm done nao, gonna get ready for Science tuition. Argh, i hate science tuition. K bye

hotcakes

2010-07-11T11:49:00.002+08:00

Had macdonalds hotcakes for breakfast. Yummy. I dont know but i guess i dont have anything else to tell. Err i'm not done with homeworks and i guess it's only geog. Is there even geog tmr? Idk.
Nao i'm thinking what to cook for lunch. No one's home and i have to cook. Thinking
of cooking ikan masak chili padi. But i'm lazy. I want to cook spaghetti, no ingredientss aiyo leceh.
K bye

arse

2010-07-10T18:50:00.002+08:00

Yerlarrrr kau cakap gitu, kalau kau jadik kite pun kau fiker cam kite kan. Case revenge per...

During training lil chat with Priscilla:
- Was waiting for my turn... Requires partner, attacker and defender. I have no partner as the rest were at the back dunnoe whether they also in the line anot and suddenly Priscilla came:

Me: Eh Priscilla! Come be my partner, i havent try you yet. (change partner)
Pris: :O you wanna try me? You mean, omg you wanna try me? *idiotic seducing face
Me: Wtf, no la i mean come be my partner!
Pris: omg you wanna fuck me....? *fucking seducing face
Me: *hits her butt
Pris: OI! *starts to hit me
Me: Oi SHOW SOME MERCY PLEASE! (that waswhat she usually say to me)
Pris: *burst out laughing* oi kpo that one my sentence, copycat!
Me: *hits her butt

Haha, Priscilla, the one who made tiring training fun, but sometimes she scares me away.

i wanna hold your hand

2010-07-10T13:07:00.002+08:00

Time pass by so fast, it's already 3.15.
Didnt jog with Masitho just nao. Shud meet her at 6.30, but i woke up at 12+ instead. Sorry Mas next week kkkk. Nao i'm waiting for my kway teow to arrive. Huhuhu. K i'm too tired. Bye

pujaan hati

2010-07-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

Yeah, 1year 7months

WHO CARES?

Big enough?

You moved on so fast. In this 1y 7m period, i have no idea how many girls have been your victim.

I saw Dia just nao, feeling2 nak meletop gitu jantung aku.
Talked to ______ otp, H's too scared to talk. Suare dhe cam bapak2 sia.
I found out that stranger's name, wtf, same name as the one i talked otp to.
I hate it when i know many people with the same name.
I'm tired.
I want to pee.
Bye

peanut butter to my jelly

2010-07-08T17:39:00.002+08:00

Netball loveeee

Hi, i'm busy with my homeworks and i was too tired ytd that i fell asleep and didnt go for tuition and i didnt switch on my laptop to update. Ok so today wasnt that bad as usual. Aft school wait for Adillah like for an hour. While waiting chitchat with Hasinah and Michelle. Feels like long time since we talked. Haha. So yeah. Then Adillah came to fetch me in the library and we went home. Went to caltex first. Chitchatttttttt. Reached home, slacked for awhile and nao here i am blogging and at the same time suffering cause i have many homeworks undone. It was due long long time ago but i havent complete them. Ahh school you're killing me. Not done with Geography brochure. Thank God it's Friday tmr. Well i actually find Friday training good cause ya you know it's Friday so who cares about homeworks, i can just fnish them up on Saturday and Sunday. So yeah. I'm off nao, homeworks waiting for me. Bye!

no one

2010-07-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

Yeah you changed.

Today was err somehow ok but there was some embarassing moments during recess err well not really but well i felt so paiseh at that time. Lessons was ok, except for Science. I will never understand what the fuck is Miss Revathy talking about no matter how hard i try to understand, i never will. Well just see how hardworking i am every Science lesson, copying down notes and dictionary will always be with me during Science, but it doesnt seem to be worth it. (err please i dont bring dictionary to school.) I dont know whether this is a good or bad news..... but Netball's gonna be on Tuesdays and Fridays. I'm quite ok with Tuesday but Friday..... is the only day i can meet Bobby! Damn Bobby is so fucking busy that we can only usually meet on Fridays. K wtv. So bye.

2010-07-06T21:05:00.002+08:00

Today i feel so different. Today i feel the pain more.
Yknow, it's painful. Worst thing i've ever feel. You'll never know how painful it is.
I'm tired of standing the pain. Endure. Perseverance. Go Hidayah.

I'm weak, it's just that you dont know. I cant stand the pain no more.
It have gone way too far, and i'm way too weak to stand the pain.

i went and let you blow my mind

2010-07-06T16:36:00.002+08:00

1) i cant forget you
2) i still can forget you
3) i still cant forget you no matter how hard i try
4) kau tatawu aku macam nak meletop bagaikan mercun time aku dengar name kau, sumpah.
5) at the same time, aku cam nak menangis, tapi takley, nnt cikgu ingatkan aku gile tetibe nangis.
6) da aku da tanak beboal pasal kau

today wasnt that bad.

shoot me

2010-07-05T09:01:00.002+08:00

So hi. It's 9.03am. I have not taken my shower yet, duh, i'm just too lazy. Currently i'm blogging, and waiting for this Asknlearn website to load, ok it loaded a few secs ago, but i think i shud just finish blogging first. I have plenty of homeworks to be done. Some was supposed to be June holiday homework, but since lesson's only gonna start this week so i was a little bit slack. I keep delaying, and nao Monday comes. I've gotta rush, and i'm going out later. Tmr's lessons suck big time, there's two periods of maths, one period of science, TWO PERIODS OF LITERATURE(FUCK LITERATURE), TWO PERIODS OF MALAY(BORING), TWO PERIODS OF ENGLISH. Wtf, FOUR PERIODS of ENGLISH LESSON ALTGHT. Damn, i'm gonna hate Tuesday. Abeh monday da baekbaek D&T last three periods, jadik three periods after recess. Babi. -.- NEW TIMETABLE SUCKS. OH YEAH, ART WILL BE ON THE LAST TWO PERIODS ON THURSDAYS, WHAT THE FUCK IT'S KILLING ME. T.T PE before recess waliao ehhhh. Ahh i guess i shud stop complaining. I'm gonna start with my homeworks nao, or else i will never can finish them up, especially literature. That motherfucking teacher let us do almost the whole worksheet which is so damn thick and instructions given wasnt clear. FUCK SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL. k bye

escapism

2010-07-04T11:11:00.003+08:00

Germany won 4-0 over Argentina, see how amazing is that. Spain won 1-0 over Paraguay, but well who cares Germany's gonna get the world cup. But well, i cant deny that David Villa is pretty good. Every match he score like wtf it's like magic. Germany vs Spain on the 7th. GO GERMANY GO. You must be in the final ok atleast. Ok end of world cup session........... Let's go on with life.

So hi. I'm having a slight fever, running nose, and sore throat and now i sound like a man. I ate medicine everyday, but instead of getting better, it's getting worst. Sabrina text me an hour ago but you know i placedmy phone on my bed and please, dont expect me to reply texts in the morning, my phone will be everywhere and i wont bother to check my phone. Hmm. So, i asked Masitho out for Toy Story 3 tmr, but she's still not sure. Raudhah and Natty will be busy tmr, so they cant tag alongggg. Oh yeah my hair is growing longerrrrrrr and i want it to reach my butt by December. :> I love long hair. I used to have shoulder length hair and it's boring cause i find it so common here in Singapore. So i want something different! Didnt take my report book today, who cares. K bye. c:

i wonder if you loved me

2010-07-03T17:52:00.003+08:00

take note of the tense in my title and whatever post i post.

I exactly rmb how the text, font, and everything look like in the last text you gave me, saying that you love me, and it was just a week before you left me. I still rmb how we first time know each other. I still rmb everything that happened between us. I still rmb all those sweet stuffs you told me. I still rmb how jealous you were knowing that i wanna go out with another guy, even tho you know he's just a bestfriend of mine. But there's only one thing i will always rmb the most. The day you left me. And i teared. But i told you that i was ok with your decision, and i didnt ask a reason why you left me, thinking i would forgot you soon, but i was wrong. I never expect you back with me again like we used to, but i've always hope we can be a good friend, but i'm left hopeless. It have been 1 year, 6 months and 3 days since you left me. I dont count, but i never can forget the date you left me, and the date when we're together. 26th Nov was the day we patched. 2nd Nov was the first time we were tgth. It was actually on the 16th, but you thought i rejected you by how i accepted you. So we only lasted for 1 month and 7 days. I had so many dreams about you and many, happy endings. After the break up, i thought everything would be fine. But after months you left me, i realised, how stupid i was calling you 'baby', and tearing for you when you left me. I started to hate you, for all the lies you gave me. But after a year you left me, i grew stronger. I know, you'll never be mine again, and i never expect you to be mine ever again later one day, even only as a close friend. You wont understand me, and i wont understand you. But i want to thank you, because of you, for almost two years, i've rejected many bloody playboys just like you, cause i'm just scared the same thing would happen again. Please, i'm not philophobia, i just dont feel like having any relationships, and btw, i'm still waiting for my 2nd Anni this coming December. I'm just happy i grow stronger every year, after all those shits which happened to me. I love myself, ~~sometimes~~.

transformer

2010-07-03T16:35:00.006+08:00

(this is not taken today, just being extra here)

Those were the pictures i took today. Raudhah, Adillah, Adlin, Natashah, Audi, Danial, Adilas, Fathul, Harraz. Did i miss anyone out? Sorry STM. Met Hazel too. And teachers. And Mrs Wong Chia Peng gave me and Adillah Kinder Bueno cause i ask for where a present and kinder bueno was all she have. Eunos Primary looks different, and i'm hating it, even tho it actually looks colourful, i'm just jealous of all those trips eunos'ians gonna have, and oh yeah, cikgu elisha told us that they're gonna change their uniform and PE shirts too. New principal, everything new. I hate future Eunos Primary. Well i had fun today. Bye

tell me

2010-07-02T18:07:00.002+08:00

Today was ok. After school slacked with NanaHunneystar, FafaFuyayo, Wawa, Khairiah, Sean, Faris, Christine and Ruth. Actually, Nana, Fafa, Wawa and I went to Caltex and decided to walk to basketball area. i forgot what block. Then skali saw Faris, Sean, Ruth and Christine. Decided to play basketball with them. After awhile, some st.hildas people and one junyuan sec guy joined in. So yeah that went on for an hour. So everyone went home, except for Nana, Fafa, Wawa, Khairiah and I. So walked towards somewhere near Khairiah's block, she went home. Left Wawa, Fafa, Nana and I. Find place to slack..... We bought alot of junk foods cause while walking there's so many kedai. Haha. Nana was busy looking for her's, skali tkde. We laughed alotttttttt and Wawa punye ketawe, fuyoh tanak kalah....... Hahaahha. Da aku malas nak elaborate, tapi sumpah gerek. Ok next time kite lepak lagi. Byeeeeee

e-learning day S1&S2

2010-07-01T08:14:00.002+08:00

I am doing my e-learning nao, but i keep pausing the slides. It's boring. It's Science.The first task i see was Science so just click on it uhr. Expansion and whatever shit. I'm still so sleepy but i automatically wake up at 6.30am and decided to not sleep back or else i'll end up waking up at twelve. and then i cant be bothered to do this e-learning thingy. I think if we study thru e-learning better. Atleast can wake up late righttttttt, and no guide, no nagging and no everything. After Science will be introduction to Geography..... Amazingly i already know about some of the things we'll be studying thanks to Masitho..... I helped her out doing her Geog project before and i actually remembered a few things.. one of them is the seven continents. Hahaha. K wtv. Ate corn flakes yummyyyyyyyyyyy. K bye

pooh and piglet

2010-06-30T20:05:00.002+08:00

When people say 'A relationship makes someone happy', it's right in a way, and wrong too. Not only BGR, but friendships too like hey you would have some misunderstanding or dislikes. So i guess i shud learn to see the positive and negative parts in every sentences stated. People have their own different views. Mostly depends on how their life is.

no matter how hard i try

2010-06-30T15:02:00.003+08:00

i can never forget you. (continued from title)

Well i must say, i kinda believe in love at first sight. Sometimes, me myself, dont know what is love, obsessed, or just a simple crush. But after one month of trying hard to forget, every single day, without fail, you will always come across my mind, even for just a few seconds. I did told everyone that i will not be excited when i heard about you, but i cant help myself. I will still be excited. It's like you're the most bombastic person and every single news about you matters to me. I dont think you know i exist. Well you know my face..... but well, nevermind. I tried to control myself from jumping around when i see you. I can control. But i still get excited. I cant help myself. 5 months you, 5 months. 5 months of crushing. I will never consider it as love, never

I'm tired. There's no school tmr. E-learning. All my timetable change, and i hate the recess time. I hate monday and tuesday. First two periods english and right after that literature. Everything is arranged purposely. PE's on Friday, two periods before recess. Science's everyday. I hate new timetable. K bye

you are nothing short of my.....

2010-06-29T18:49:00.003+08:00

Science centre wasnt that fun but well yeah saw hot people, eurasion, duh. Which mat will go to Science Centre.............. Bleagh, skip. Met Raudhah. Went home at 5.30pm. I'm to lazy to elaborate. i kissed a monkey at science centre. i have the picture, but it's not obvious cause my head blocked the monkey's face. i kissed its lips, and picture taken from the front. so yeah. haha. raudhah and i laughed......................... when we reached eunos. talked about school. and schoolmates. and raudhah find my schoolmates intresting. and its good. atleast i dont feel like talking shit to her....................... haha. k bye, i want to irritate adile, k bye

cant believe i called you baby

2010-06-28T18:07:00.005+08:00

First day of school wasnt that bad. Reach class, i was like, "YOOOOO". Ofcourse everybody looked. Heheee and the first few classmates i saw were Haziq, Izz and Iqmal. Aku daa tersengehsengeh cam kerang busok, and sumpah Iqmal irritating. Myra's lorrr. She always deny abeh kacau aku pulak......... ok so went to the canteen as usual and went back up and as usual hong ling will ask me accompany her down to buy water again and then jengjengjeng, Miss Leow came in! So it was class contact time till 0900. After that was science. You know mdm zulaiha's not back, she pregnant and yeah got MC. Class' worst nightmare is, MISS REVATHY IS OUR SCIENCE TEACHER. WTH MAN. We did farewell before semester two starts, cause she was an NIE teacher and taught us english in semester one. BUT WHY MUST WE SAY HI BACK? haish. So two periods of science. Cikgu ni memang prangai. RELEASE TEN MINUTES LATE, BECAUSE OF TWO FUCKING IDIOTS. "one of your classmate problem is your problem too" so his dick burst its our problem too ehh cher. -.- teacher says students have attitude problem, but they themself? ALSO ATTITUDE PROBLEM. The bell is to tell us when is the next period, recess or whatever. So can teachers follow the schedule? No. Students can. So now who have more attitude problem. Then what's the use of the bell? A few seconds of lullaby? Bodo cam donkey. So went for recess with usual people. Myra, Fahmi, Adillah, Khairiah and Amira. Ate sandwich. Bored of school's food. That day, that lauk. Boring pe. So yeah then went back to class. Skip la, not willing to tell you that Fahmi and Nick actually went in from the window. Ok i just tell you smth i wasnt willing to tell. Wtv. Too lazy to backspace. So aft that was english. Ok la, wasnt that dry. Then D&T. Miss Goh(or wtv the spelling) didnt come. So this teacher took us. Did the keychain thingy. THE MACHINE LIKE FUCKING SCARY. I redo until five times. Hehe. BUT I DIDNT WASTE THE THING OK, I REUSE. :P So aft that went off with Izz and Fahmi. Went to the canteen. (i hate that part. wont tell you why but i hate it. :'[ ) They ajak me go bubble tea, but Haziq halau me. It was a joke. But i took it seriously. And i went home. Took bus with Khairul. But he didnt talk to me all the way. Nevermind. So tmr will be going for excursion. @Science Centre. Boring. Been there for countless times. But the good thing is it's during school hour(YAY) and after we got back from Science Centre we are dismissed! Yippeeeeeee horaaaay! Teacher said we'll reach school at 1+? hopefully everything will be okay. Science centre only for express classes, and i forgot where the rest of the stream will go. Hmm. But well................ i guess this is long enough? or not? k wtv, i'm tired, bye.

i'm so happy today. heard about him, and seriously no one can tell how happy i am now. *evil laughs*

tryna avoid Dia, but no matter how........... we'll still meet. and i hate eye contacts. i cant avoid. FMLL. PS, FMLL is not Fuck My Life. There's two L, so go figure it out. :>

I'm tired falling for the wrong person. God help me not fall for anyone again

amazing

2010-06-27T16:42:00.003+08:00

omg. how can people who i passed by million times in springfield sec do not know that Hidayah Ferrero is actually me? From 1Integrity? Weird. V weird. I think my pictures look so normal, or maybe, because i do not wear specs in my pictures i look different? Well, a few did say i look different without specs, but is it tottally different? I think my face look the same everywhere i am. :O Weird. Weird. Weird. Weird. Like omg. My photo edits is so simple and even some show from top to bottom. So it's kinda weird if they dont recognise me. Ok please, i'm not gonna be like what i am in primary school, where everybody know me. I want people to leave me alone. Well unless smth happen, and want or dont want, you have to say hi to hidayah the rebelious girl. I have one problem. What if i get kicked out from councillor? It'll be embarassing........... Well in primary school who give a fuck, i'm still a prefect. But in secondary school........... scary. Anytime can kena kick out. Regret for going for the interview. So back to topic. I think i shud take a picture, which people can maybe easily recognise? Well.... i'll try. But i think it will still be the same, that is how i look in pictures, it's natural. and i cant do anything to change it. My face is meant to be liddat in pictures. Ahh well.............................. i've got my geography book and sketch book just now. Doing my science homework+blogging........ k bye

the picture up there is simple, and please dont tell me you still cant recognise me.

i'm still a rockstar

2010-06-27T08:50:00.004+08:00

Good morning. It's raining. c: Nice. I am happy to say that i've finished my english book review.... well except for the vocab and phrase thingy. Malas nye. Maths, a few questions left. Literature, STILL GOT ALOT. Science, alamak, i dont know. Lazy lor to flip text book and all the notes........ but terpakse. aiya, nightmare or what, tmr school starts. T.T Help me. I HATE SCHOOL. I'm not ready to meet anyone. Especially you. T.T Please rain tmr morning, i'm not willing to sit in the parade square on the first day. It feels like tmr will be the first day in a new school. I need to change. Change everything. Thanks to this holiday, my feelings can have a little rest. Hidayah, be ready for school. OH YES, I'LL STOP COMPLAINING NAO. Talking about school, suddenly reminds me of Swensens with Netballers tmr. c: Is it tmr? That was what Priscilla told me............ I'll be meeting Adillah later on, Raudhah wanna meet too? Last chance you know, nanti kawan baek kau Adillah tu da busy gan dhe punye match, kau da takde chance nak jumpe dhe kan.......... Ok i'll text you later. OH YEAH!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADLEY. Well i gave you wishes alr ytd, but since i have time, i'll wish on the official day again, since i have time. So to my dearest senior........... Happy 15th Birthday, kau da tua seriously. lol jk. Haha. Ok even though you are my senior, and a guy, it's nice talking to you. =D Well I hope, a p. charming will fall from the sky, and fall in love with you kkkkkkk? SEE YOU TMR CREEPY CREATURE/RABBIT! No you cant be bugs bunny. :P Hahaha, once again, Happy Birthday. All the best in life. <3

Ok, bye. c:

what's up

2010-06-26T20:45:00.004+08:00

I seriously dont understand people who easily say i love you to alot of people. I'm not gonna continue this, because i'm too tired giving a question and end up answering everything myself. I guess, i should be a teenage magazine writter or whatever. I think i'm pretty good at giving a question, and answering everything by myself, just by interviewing a few people, but i can put in more infos and opinions on what they think of my question. Well.... dream on i'm still too young and i dont know how the fuck to show my talent. I bet, by reading this, some of you will be thinking imma show off. Hey c'mon i just wanna show my talent. EVERYBODY HAVE TALENT. So k whatever. I'm just trying to give my opinion here. Ok, i give too much opinion on every post i made. So bye, i know you get bored of all my opinion already. Ok did i even spell opinion right? k wtv, bye.

i wanna start a fight

2010-06-26T11:14:00.002+08:00

i slept at 3.30am last night. Fell asleep while watching Spain's match. And Portugal vs Brazil, 0:0. Macam pathetic gitu. Man of the match, keeper. DUH. Brazil shot alot, but keeper manage to catch and avoid the ball from getting into the fucking goal post. Ok so Spain won! As expected la. Number 6 man of the match lorrrr, but david villa scored the first goal i think? haha wtv. david villa pro or what. K give salam to soccer first.

Hi! I'm still sleepy but i gotta get up and do my homeworks. I seriously didnt touch any of them ytd. zzZZZZzzzZ. Tmr, no madrasah for me!^^ I didnt show mom the programme form for tmr, must pay, and she didnt pay, so no need go. Bagus. Malas pe. So no planning this weekend....... Halizah kau mcm paham okay can okay can satu miss call dari kau pun takde. K takpe. I forgot what Adillah tell me on fb chat. Meet her today or tmr? Alamak, aku ni pun. Adlin, carik pasal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kan da kene stfu. Haha. K. Hahaha kk. I've got nothing to say oh yah one more thing, aku nak terkencing!!!! k bye!

unconditional

2010-06-25T17:58:00.005+08:00

something unexpected. a problem. i believe. it must be solved. but when it comes to choices. sometimes its hard. to avoid anyone. from getting hurt. but unfortunately. a choice. must be made. and you must. be responsible. for all the consequences. even if. you have to lose. the one you love.

When i'm gone. I just want you to be happy. I'm gonna give back everything.
Which i've taken from you.

ku menangis mengenangmu. segalanya tentangmu. :')

I'm just glad we can end this.

much missed. ♥

i've just lost my husband

2010-06-25T08:04:00.003+08:00

Ok, i will not start this post with soccer stuffs. So hi! It's still early in the morning. It have been two days i wake up so early and sleep kinda early and wake up again at night for the sake of watching world cup. c: Today i actually thought of going to the library but lazy ler. Nevermind just finish my homeworks at home. School's in two days time. Damn it, i hate school. I HATE SCHOOL. Big enough? Ok i'm sitting right beside the window, but i just realised that its actually raining, after i heard thunder. Wth. Haha. It's still so dark. I want my room to be decorated with sunflower and edelweiss stickers and banners and i want my lamp to be a sunflower like smth liddat. I only want that. My room all yellow-brown alr mahhh, so just need those stuffsssssssssss where to get sunflower lamp? I dont know. Been to a few lighting shops, but neverr see sunflower lamp before. Aiyaaaaaa. Now, i feel like eating banana splitttttt. The best place for banana split, and near from my house, Geylang. Ok talking about Geylang, there's madrasah on Sunday. I'm so not going. Got this whatever programme and i find all the uztaz lame, their jokes only works on Lowe-Asas students. Ok. So. I'm so sad that i missed town this holiday. Some peeps ask me to go to town but they ask me out like on the end of second week, and i finished up my money alr. T.T K wtv. I want new shades. K bye

forget

2010-06-24T11:43:00.003+08:00

I've changed my blogskin and i like it. Well i know its v v simple, but i find it nice. c:
I'm sneezing every 5seconds, and it's fuckingly irritating. I'm gonna start with my homeworks soon, bye!

You said that you're gonna wait. I laughed. You liar.

stop

2010-06-24T08:15:00.002+08:00

Slovenia 0:1 England

Weyweyweyyyyyy England menang! Defoe man of the match. He scored from quite a distance, nice one. Today got 4matches.Tmr Portugal hehehe. VS Brazil. BOBBY, meh kite tengok sape menang eh. Blueks. Adik aku pulak macam paham tawu pasal bola. Tak tengok pun. Abeh next day carik newspaper tngk sape menang tu la yang dhe support. -,-

K da pasal bola. So supposed to be in school for netball today but i'm having flu and i cant stop sneezing and i hate it so much. Missed netball this whole week. On Monday, was still overseas in the morning. Then today got flu. Good ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Haish. I have not finish my fucking homeworks and i'm only left with three days wtfwtf. Aiya k bye

what friends are for. c:

2010-06-23T18:56:00.002+08:00

Back from Halimatul's crib. So first of all walked to Raudhah's block. Waited for like 5 mins, and batang edong pun tak nampak, padehal dhe kate dhe nak turun. Check2, she was at the bridge. -.- It was raining then. Walked to Ubi. Waited for Adlin, and then went up to Matul's house. Halimatul was pissed(haha) cause Adlin and Raudhah(i innocent ok) keep knocking on Halimatul's room window, and i think she got pissed cause we always knock on her window like tailong. V hard. Mcm nak kasi pecah. Haha. So first kite diam2 uhr. Then went into her room, thinking of what to do. Then, we decided to start cooking/baking at 3.30. Adlin tak sabar. So it was 3.25, and adlin was like, "Eh five more minutes" makan je kau tawu eh kecyk. Then i was like, "Eh matul, si Adlin ni cakap lagi 5mins je." But matul like just keep quiet and continued to watch the vid @youtube with Raudhah. So after that we fried chicken. While waiting, Raudhah, Adlin and I went to shop n save to buy the brownie flour thingy and chocolate fudge. Cost us 14bucks. Pokai der. Aku gan Adlin cam pathetic gitu stakat kasi $3. Raudhah gave $7 a few cents. Orang kaya la kan................ haha. Halimatul kept calling. We took sucha long time. Well the queue was long and we took our own sweet time to walk back to her house. Hehe. Ate the chicken. Spicy, i like! Then start mixing all the ingredients for brownie. Halimatul prangai buat kite takut. Dhe kate kite terletak minyak terlebih, padehal tak. -.- Then we waited. Si Halimatul ni tatawu sabar. Every 2mins go back to the kitchen to check. Baru 10mins, takkan cepat nah. Then like after 20mins+, we went to check, took it out from the oven. I took chopstick and go pokepoke(alot of pretty holes haha). MENJADI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEZZAH. Then yala we eat them. Left some for Halimatul's mom and grandmom and bro. Then, the rest for us to eat, and me adlin and raudhah brought home some too. So after that chatchatchat and blaablabla and then went home. Otw home i saw Christine. c: So got home let my mom taste the brownie and she said that its nice and soft. :> Then did my prayers. Asar ler. Skrg baru adzan maghrib. So k bye nak sembahyang. Good girl! :D K bye

bestfriend

2010-06-23T13:09:00.003+08:00

I only need a bestfriend who will still accept me if a guy you love choose me, not you.

Because why?

Knowing you would sacrifice your feelings just for a bestfriend.

It's the hardest thing.

And it simply shows what our friendship means to you.

Love story dont have happy endings.

superhuman

2010-06-23T08:37:00.002+08:00

France 1:2 South Africa

Aiya, da agak South Africa gonna win.

Will update again later, bye!

problems

2010-06-22T16:05:00.003+08:00

1) Acap hates me for __________________.
2) Acap hates me for __________________.
3) Acap hates me for __________________.
4) Acap hates me for __________________.
5) Acap hates me for __________________.
6) My bill rose up. $300.
7) Lost internet modem. Mom gonna get a new one but gotta repay for it. 60bucks. T.T
8) Homeworks not done.
9) I seriously need to settle all my problems with Acap. :'(
10) I miss Shafeeq. T.T
11) I miss babygirls.
12) I dunwanna go to school.
13) I need a break.
14) I feel guilty, Acap forgive me.

If i were to continue, there'll be no ending.

I promise we'll be ok. I promise i'll get everything fixed. I promise everything's gonna be fine. Luvs.

seven

2010-06-22T09:34:00.003+08:00

Portugal 7:0 Korea DPR

CHRISTIANO RONALDO'S MAN OF THE MATCH.
He's fucking hot. *melts* When can i meet youuuuuu oh ohhhhhhhhhhhh.
NUMBER 7. :D :D :D
Guess whattttttt.
Spain scored 2 yesterday. I LOVE DAVID VILLA TOO.
NUMBER 7 JUGAKKKKKK! :D
MAN OF THE MAN TOO! He scored 2. Muahahaha.
What a coincidence! But whatever la eh, Christiano Ronaldo still the hottest. Torres, i dont know what the fuck telah happen to him last night. He missed a few goals which is so the fucking near. HAHAHAHAH AND HE IS OUT TOO! Kesian kau Torres.
So Portugal's next match will be on the 25th of June. Dont wanna miss it. :>
Huhuuuuuu, but i'm so sad. I lost my internet modem. :(
K bye

butterfly

2010-06-21T17:09:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so down right now........

Sometimes i seriously dont understand myself. Like hello, Hidayah, why are you always hoping for something impossible? I hate myself for being a dreamer all the time.

I need to get back to reality...................... and find someone real.

I need a movie date. Text me.

missed

2010-06-21T12:38:00.003+08:00

I miss dia alr. I'm so sorry cause i think you were pissed last night, especially it was at 4am and you are tired at that point of time. I AM SO SORRY, BUT IMISSYOULIKEHELL.

I hate this feelings. I feel guilty eventho it wasnt my fault but well it was v early in the morning! I'll also be pissed if that happened to me. Haish. I would be the happiest bitch on Earth if wma. I was happy to know we had another nintb.

I seriously hate farewells.

Pasrah........................................................... :'(

PS, some words are combined but well you wont understand.

much missed. Oh yeah i fucking love your cp,fc,smlandevth. :((((

What's worse is i lost my modem. fuck my luck.

fml

2010-06-21T11:12:00.005+08:00

Enough lies. I hate my few weeks before school reopens. I guess i shud stop cursing here cause many people get offended(from what i realised). My holiday wasnt that good but well i'm happy because errrrrr arrrrrrrrrr............ nevermind. :))) fuck this week. God, i know this week will suck big time. I hate school. I hate homeworks. I hate evrything.

sucka

2010-06-18T15:42:00.002+08:00

Hey look i dont give a shit about you and i know you dont give a shit about me too. But c'mon dont act like you care because i dont care even if you care about me cause i dont care. 'Bestfriend' is only a name. I dont give a fuck whether i'm still your bestfriend or not.

Well I bet some of you idiots will get offended by that few sentences up there. Dont be an idiot and mind your own business. There's no name stated so shut the fuck up and ignore the sentences up there, well unless you are really sure you are the one i'm talking about.

So yeah as you know i'm off in an hour time. I'm bringing my laptop along so i guess i would be online later night. I'll only on the laptop when i'm really bored in the middle of the night while everyone's sleeping in the bus. Oh yeah i forget to mention that i'm going with a troop of strangers. In case you dont understand, i'm going in rombongan. Where i'm going? Terengganu. Been there before but it was like 4-5years ago. Ok so. I'm hungry but i really dont have the mood to eat but i have to eat but i dont want to. I feel so weak today as i slept at three last night. I've been sleeping late nowadays. No good. I want chocolate ice blend. I've been craving for chocolate stuffs. I miss eating them. It's like a weak ago since i eat chocolate, i guess. Oh yeah netballers will be getting an ice-cream treat at Swensens. When? I'm not sure. Hopefully it's not on Monday. Oh yeah only one more week left to school. Damn i hate school. I dont miss it at all. Ofcourse la i come to school like twice a week during holiday. I'm hating school and i love home. I love the malls and i love the beach. Oh yeah i love the library too. I hate school. I want to appeal. But i dont know where shud i appeal to. K wtv. I guess i shud take my lunch now so bye.

lipstick

2010-06-18T10:15:00.002+08:00

Morning. c:

I'll be on hiatus for a few days so yeah. Dont miss me too much. Well anw i think my blog is getting kinda boring. First, i'm too lazy to update with every single detail. Second, my life is getting boring and i really have nothing to tell. So go find other intresting blog to read. Well anw, i update for the sake of not wanting this blog to look pathetic, but well it still look pathetic isnt? So byee. :>

olele

2010-06-17T21:06:00.005+08:00

omgeee sentosa with netballers wazawzomeee. tiring tho cause i only get 4h of sleep last night. So first of all we assemble in school. Principal was there and she nag about netballers attire and whatever. Me and Haidah kurangajar plan to take her picture when she's nagging. HAHAHA. Ok. Around 8.15am, we left school for Sentosa. Huhu. I was quiet in the bus. Was too tired and i want to save energy for the amazing race. Oh yeah we passed by the Universal Studio bigbigbig roller coaster omg it's so cool. I want to take a ride. Heeeeeeee lets save money for Universal Studio. Ok so, walked to the beach. Dont know la what beach but it wasnt Siloso. (all i know is siloso hahaha) So we were split up into groups. Was with Haidah, Huda, Athirah, Jolyn(dk how to spell) and Adrelia. Ok Adrelia was supaaaaahyper. Ok then we walked up and down. Round and round ok it was damn tiring and i seriously cant stand the heat. Plus i regret wearing the bigbig PE shirt. I got different sizes heheeee and just now's was damn big. And yeaaaaa my bermuda really bothered me. I fold it three times ok wtv. So we walk around and the seniors asked the crew there to help us answer the qns in the worksheet. So aft we were done, went back to the beach. We were first group to reach. But well being the first group to reach doesnt mean we will win the race causee points are counted by accuracy of the answers given plus, our cheer points. So ok our cheer wasnt that menjadi but well, nevermind. Haish. So camwhored, ate, drank at the beach. Kecoh. Then we crossed the bridge. We were all like whoaaaaaa haha. Camwhored like as if we are tourist(we really look like one). The wind was awesomeeeeeeee. Then went back down and took group photos. Some with teacher, some only the netballers. Heeeeeeee i love the scenery. So crossed back the beach and took the tram. Eh wait we actually went to the 7-eleven(again) before that. So aft that walked towards the tram-stop. The first tram was full, so decided to wait for another tram. Took the next tram. We were all at the back. Me and Pamela were enjoying the breezeeeeee. It was niceeee. Ok then we went to look for the bus which will bring us back to school. We walked sucha long way. Yes, one big round. Wtffffff. So yeah atlast we found the bus and then ofcz we went back to school. In the bus, prize giving. Team 1, which is my team, got the 4th place. Awww, :( But nevermind, atleast we put in effort. Congrats to Team 4 for getting the first place.^^ Ok wtv. And again, i relaxed in the bus+worried cause i'm late to meet Sabrina. Reached school, off the bus, rushed to the bus stop. Took 8 and changed to 21. Kalau aku tunggu bus 15 besok pun tak sampai. Reached Eunos, ran home. Quickly changed and put in all my homeworks into my bag and rush out of home again. Missed 15. But who cares 15 take one big round to get to Marine Parade Library. So took 966. I wasnt late! Muahahahahaha. Sabrina and me reached at the same time so yeah. Reached library, then we looked for a spot. Usual spot. Then only half an hour aft that went down to the cafe to eat. Spent $4 on whatever potato thingy. Then went back up to the same spot. Did my maths. Managed to finish 2/2 of the paper 1. But i only did a few qns for paper 2. Itupun for East Spring Sec paper je. Pasir Ris Sec paper menyakitkan hati qns dhe sumpah. Da la cikgu puki nak save paper selit smue qns pat satu paper. Expeect us to write on foolscape. Then its the same kan might as well print big big and leave some space for us to do each and every qns. Bodo pe. -.- Ok wtv. Ok it was funnnn tho. Hahahuhu then reached home at almost 8pm. So i wasnt home from 6.30am-8pm. Best. K byeeeeeeee( i got no idea when i'm gonna upload sentosa pictures but well if i got them i also dont think i want to upload. maybe a few la k)

mati rasa

2010-06-16T17:43:00.003+08:00

I love you for all the memories you gave me.

I dont hate you for leaving.

I miss you.

Sometimes i really have no choice but to tell the truth.

scene

2010-06-16T12:33:00.007+08:00

Draw 0-0 sia semalam, nbcb. _!_

Takpeee C. Ronaldo tetap hott hehehe.

Heyyy i've just woke up and it's 12.35pm now. I'm so tired. I wann chocolate roll right now now now. K laaaaaa bye.

miles away

2010-06-15T19:14:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so insecure now.

I need my piggy now.

Where the fuck are you when i need you.

Seriously, cramps are adding more burden towards my pain.

or or or

2010-06-15T10:09:00.003+08:00

Good morning! Two hours since i on my laptop. Whoa so fast. Tak prasan da kul 10 pun. Ok so. I'm still sleepy. Its ten but its still pretty dark that i have to switch on the light. Its raining. Huhu. Alvin & the Chipmunks Meet the Wolfman. Wth seh. Haha. @Okto, Friday, 7pm. Haha. Ok so maths tution ytd was fun. Haha. Hahaahahhaha. Ok tanak elaborate. I want longlonglong hair. Heeeeeheeee k bye.

strawberry

2010-06-14T15:01:00.003+08:00

Terkenangku senyumanmu

Detik pertama berseminya cinta

Kian tiba penghujung waktu

Saling berlinangan pilu

Setia ku menyayangi tiada ku kesali

Walau kian hanya berteman seribu kenangan

Bagiku terlaluindah setiap detik bersama

Rela akhirnya ku terluka dariku hidup tanpa kenal cintamu

eyes

2010-06-14T12:47:00.003+08:00

You still love her, I can see it in your eyes.

The truth is that i can hear everytime you lie.

I love today's netball training.

Ok i need to go to the library, anyone? Well i mean, from the time library is open till seven. I desperately need a perfect place to do my homeworks. Too much distraction at home. Oh yeah i still havent finish reading The Kite Runner. Oh maybe i shud just watch the movie so i dont have to read the book. Yeah the best way. Wont take my time and atleast i wont get bored reading a blank page only filled with words. I dont really find it intresting, but well, nevermind. Oh yeah there's maths tuition today. Not really sure but i'll ask my mom to call their office.

ANYONE INTRESTED TO CATCH NANNY MACPHEE AND THE BIG BANG/TOY STORY 3?

heeeeheeeee i want to watch. If can, all in one day. Haha. I need more dollars. I spent all the money mom gave me heeeheeeeee.

Oh yeah my adik sedare is getting chubbier. Haha cute pe. Yknow right my grandma's house is a door away from mine. So i went to her house just now since her door was opened. So my adek sedare was there. (he's a P5 guy.)

Me: Assalamualaikum, nenek mane?

Danial(his name): Jap ehk. *rushed into mummy's room*

Me: Ok.

Danial: Oh nenek tengah kt bilek air ah. (the way he say cute. haha)

Me: Ahh, okla tkpe bye.

Danial: Okk bye. (the way he say cute. haha)

Ok i'm bored.

I'm still in my stinky PE shirt. Later la mandi. Penat. Haha k bye

huhu

2010-06-13T10:46:00.002+08:00

I WANT CHOCOLATE CAKE RIGHT NOW NOW NOW.
Yeah i want it so badly. From Royal cake shop. I want. So badly.
K whatever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AAISYAH SAFRINA BTE F.
I MISS YOU VERY THE MUCH.

K i want to watch movie online. Bye

never

2010-06-12T09:21:00.000+08:00

I've tired my best to be your best but you just couldn't see the effort
I'm patient enough through out this 4months
But I ended up being treated like shit
When I did try my best to take care of your feelings
But do you ever try to take care of mine? No.
I never force you to fulfill my wish
I asked you once and if you said no what can I say?
I kept quiet
You believed what people out there said
And we ended up with a misunderstanding
Have I ever want to start an argument? No.
Your feelings always comes first
You never care about others' feelings
But no I don't do revenge
Because soon karma will hit you
It'll be worse than what you did to me

Funny eh you. Its like you're trying to push away someone who is willing to understand and be there for you when you need someone, when you have problems and stuffs. Don't you know how to appreciate? If I've ever did something or said anything you don't like, can you just like speak up? Keeping quiet just make everything worse. I'll speak up too, soon. But c'mon to me i don't really have problem with your attitude. I'm not perfect and i guess i should understand your attitude cause me myself have attitude too. But after knowing what you said, yeah i'm disappointed with you. For your information, i never try to dirty your name. But what you do? You bitched about me. I'm okay if you say something true. But what? You exaggerate everything. YEAH YOU EXAGGERATE EVERYTHING. YES EVERYTHING. Yeah you should know who you are. I may be available anytime for you, but i'm not your fairygod mother which you can call me only when you need help, and forget me when you don't need me.

ferrrero rocher

2010-06-11T16:19:00.001+08:00

I hate girls who expect guys to be sincere and faithful towards them but they never appreciate the guy at all. -.-

K i'm bored. I want to watch Nanny Macphee and the big bang and Toy Story 3. Nany Macphee's out, Toy story will be next thrusday. Anyoneeeee? c= Toy story's in 3D. Huhu. I want to watch. K so i didnt switch on laptop last night. Slept from 8pm-5am. 5.30am-8.30am. 9.30am-12.30pm. 15h of sleeep ohh heaven. Okay i woke up also because of a fucking call, my sister picked up the phone and woke me up how idiotic. Can just say i'm sleeping right. -.- K i'm seriously craving for chocolates. I want ferrero rocher. and kinder bueno. and oh yeah magnum gold. It's always out of stock babi. -.- I'm not done with homeworks and i dont know when i'm gonna get it done. I'm so lazy anw its not that much. Can actually finish it by atleast 2days but i'm too lazy. Haish. Holidays only left with two weeks. Wtf its so fast. i hate school. arghhh. nowadays i love home. i love going to school just for a few hours for netball. i love going out and its like i go out almost everyday. i love my life. except for some fucking parts. which sometimes ruined the best parts of my life. fuck those parts. K i'm tired bye

nothin' on you

2010-06-11T08:12:00.003+08:00

Wednesday:

went to vivo with fam
went to harbourfront first
went to hang ten
bought tees
went to jeans shop
bought one jean
went to vivo
walked around
window shopping
watched prince of persia
ate @LJS
went home
skipped science tution

Yesterday:

went for netball @Pasir Ris Sec
friendly match vs Pasir Ris Sec
B div
C div watched
and do footworks and ballworks
C div played on court
i played GK. (ok wtv)
i think C div won.
off to macs @Tamp mall with Fatin, Fatin Kechiq, Haidah, Safura and Nadhirah.
ate happy meal hehehe
they were playing with my happy meal toy -.-
the toy is cute :>
went home as i was late to meet primary school friends
trained home
changed clothes
raudhah called
went off to blk 9
walked to raudhah's house
took stuffs
went down
wait for some people
off to east coast
audi was fuckingly irritating
looked for a spot
gaaabaaaboom! apelagi, maen air laaa der.
audi carik pasal
we ran here and there
splash here splash there
ate mee goreng yummyyyy
cooler was dirty
rau and matul washed
me and adlin and halizah went back to the sea
with audi and harraz and lukman too
water made, everyone drank
went back to sea
went back up
drank
tried making sandcastle, tapi tak jadijadi
went back to sea
sea
sea
sea
sea
ate again
drink
sea again
halizah and matul went home
sea
get off the sea
showered
yeah we really showered
there were shampoo and soap haha
changed clothes
went to the mirror
and realised that me, rau and adlin were wearing pink
hehe what a coincidence
went back
boys' turn to change
they took sucha long time to change
clear up the mess
boys are back
we went to the toilet again to wash the cooler
by the time we were back, the boys weren't there
went off
saw mushafiq and harraz @the bridge
they were skating
walked with them to the bus stop
took 55
after our bus stop, Audi, Brannigan, Lukman, Adilas and Natashah were there
they went up the bus
adilas was acting like a jakun when he went up
blah
i paiseh picit bell at wrong bus stop and went down(it was double deck)
audi, brannigan and lukman the gundus followed me down
went back up (-.-)
they were all laughing (-.-)
me, audi, lukman, brannigan, harraz and mushafiq went off
stopped at pasar there
so adilas was left with the girls
HAHAAHAHAAHAHAH
home sweet home

Today

slack
rest
i am fasting today
slack
teevee
laptop
blah

bye

hehe

2010-06-09T10:14:00.002+08:00

I forgot, today is my 1year 6months! :DDDDDD

HAPPY NYEEEEEE.

bore

2010-06-09T09:55:00.003+08:00

I am bored. Been onsugar-ing, tumbling, facebook, and now blogging.

Ohh yeah later going outzxc^^ I'm tired. Netball match's tmr. @Pasir Ris Sec.
C division. Huhu. K bye

behind those smiles

2010-06-08T10:29:00.006+08:00

Yeah imma hypocrite or wtv you call it

So what do you expect?

Oh and what are you?

We are perfectly the same

We are hypocrites

So shut the fuck up

bye

addictive

2010-06-08T09:30:00.002+08:00

cause here we go again

Acap dunwan talk to me only because of ytd small matter. Merepek la. Nevermind i'll wait. I wont start. But i'll wait. :'(

*CRIES*

damsel in distress

2010-06-07T20:34:00.004+08:00

I am hating cyberworld. And my phone. I guess i shud off my phone this day and maybe switch it on when i only need it. So sorry if i dont reply any msges. Guess i'll only switch it on at night.. I cannot not on my laptop. I guess i'll try. Yeah i will try. Argh i hate holidays. At the same time i hate school. Argh. I hate some parts of my life. Fuck those fucking parts. I have no mood to communicate much nowadays............................................................. k bye

Acap i'm so sorry ok. :'(

lame shit

2010-06-07T07:29:00.004+08:00

Satu pegi sini, smue pegi sini.
Satu pakai tumblr, smue pakai tumblr.

What's so good about tumblr anw? No its not good. People can repost what you post and if there's your picture in the post, JENGJENGJENG. HAHAHAHAHAHA v poor thing. Ok gila. I waiting for Lush to text me well i guess i'm going out pretty soon. Haish. This Amira SUJU also never reply my msg. Tsk. Oh yeah you might be wondering where i'm going. I'm going for this lame shit thingy which Mercu organised. Amazing race wtfzxc the whole Singapore Sec1&2 mercu students must go. Paid for it alr when we register. -.- So i'm not going for netball training today. Well nevermind. There's match on Thursday. (: Hey i can defend better now cause the new coach always leave me with either GK/GD bips... Wth. Haha ok wtv. I love being GS. Shooter. Dunlikey be GA its so tiring 2/3 of the court. GD also 2/3 of the court but its easier la kan defend only. Ok stop eh.

I love onsugar.

K bye, Lasyiliah da bising msg2.

FE _|_

2010-06-06T20:01:00.003+08:00

Today wazzzzzzz awesome. Went to Vivo with Sabrinaaa and shopped. Spent quite alot and almost fnished the 100bucks mom gave me and i actually ajak her(my mom, not sab) out for shopping again this Wednesday haha i guess i'm too pampered okay whatever. So yeah reached home at 6.30pm. Errr ahhhhh i want to maki people thru this post right now now now.

OMG THERE'S A FUCKER IN DISGUISE AROUND ME, HOW AMAZING.
(i'm one too sometimes but its sometimes not manymany times like you fucker)

K this is what i called maki-ing people and i'm still not satisfied but well better keep it to myself or else many people out there terasa kesian pulak kan.

zombie

2010-06-06T10:35:00.002+08:00

hi, i thought you'd always be mine.

I'm in pieces baby fix me

third post. :O

2010-06-05T18:26:00.003+08:00

lame shit everyone's on tumblr now. Tumblr is useless for me. I have too many blogs to handle and i guess i'm loving onsugar. Onsugar is personal so yeah. I'm still on blogger tho.
Oh yeah OH MY GOD I MISS MUHD FARIDDDDD. :( amek kau, nak satu dunia tawu kan hahaha.

I dont force people to tell their secrets to me and sometimes i keep quiet and wait for them to speak up.

bilaaaaaaa

2010-06-05T15:12:00.003+08:00

I am v v v v v v v v v tired. I'm always tired on Saturdays omgeeee. Tmr aft madrasah going out with Sabrinaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. <3 omgeeeeeee i'm v v v hungry i want snacks please. K i tired bye :>

All about you baybeh

2010-06-05T07:51:00.003+08:00

Goodmorning. This is so fucking early in the morning. It's 8am. I woke up at 7.30am i dont know why and i cant put myself back to sleep. I slept at 12.30pm last night oh great. Oh yeah there's akhlak&sirah exam tmr ah wtv shit. Lantak la nak fail fail je. Oral tmr too. Seriously cant be bothered to memorise everything. I'm too tired. Haish. I completed only 20% of my holiday homeworks and you expect me to study for madrasah huh huh huh. Tauhid&Fiqh paper was last week and i didnt study for it and guess what, i left blanks FOR ALL open ended questions. Wtv la eh. EOY then i revise now i tired to study madrasah. I still have alot more to study. Madrasah like wtf every year the sirah is like almost the same, they keep repeating the same thing and they think what i can memorise everything perfctly for years isit. I still have science and history to memorise all the facts formulas and wtv la. The sirah is fuckingly long and there's many story to memorise. You think what i einstein isit huh huh huh. Ok wtv. Didnt jog just now cause i woke up late and it was raining also. I think Masitho wasnt awake too but wait, i think she's online now. She wake up fuckingly early everyday. O.o Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Fuck June holidays gonna end in three weeks time and i believe three weeks will only gonna be in a blink of an eye tskkkkkkkk. I'm tired. I'm not looking forward to school oh yeah and next semester will be geography omg how would it be eh. Ok afterall this is the longest post i've made after my hiatus k bye haha.

untitled

2010-06-04T21:35:00.003+08:00

Yeah you changed.
I kinda agree with (name) when he actually said that you changed. Well basically everbody will change. But you changed so drastically. It's obvious that you changed, and yet you can still deny. Wtfwtf. All those words which you thought was so minah-ish, you are using it. In fact you know almost all of the meanings. You hate kpo people but i think you are also a kpo. You dont like right when people ask you personal stuffs or wtv? Then you think people like it when you ask them about this and that like everything in this world which is so unimportant matters to you. Hey even if you know everything that is happening in this world nothing's gonna change. You talk like as if you are the most perfect bitch ever(ok no offence). You dont appreciate other people's feelings towards you. Can you imagine you like someone and the person heck care about your feelings? You wouldnt like it for sure.

Sape nak terasa, you are v v welcomed. :)
I wont bother people who ask me who is this post about cause like what i've said, kau nak terasa, kau punye pasal. bye

buzzzzzbuzzzzbuzyyy

2010-06-04T08:42:00.001+08:00

I'm busy working on my June Holidays IBL Science Project thingy. Its AIDS, and i'm intrested. HAHAHAHA half of the class is doing AIDS tho. Haha k bye

dirty little secrets

2010-06-03T15:27:00.007+08:00

I love you forever, forever is over.

Say hello to goodbye.

Sometimes life really leave us with no choice

Take the risk

i miss you idiot

it's broken

2010-06-02T10:55:00.003+08:00

I know i never told you that i love you. Now its all too late.

Hey wassup peeepawl. It's a brand new day. I skip computer lesson today. I am plain lazy. I feel so good today. Luvittttt. I think mom shud be back by later night or maybe tmr oh yeah i havent tell you people that my mom actually went oversea. Huhu. I have nothing much to say uhr actually. Oh yeah i cant wait for Sentosa trip with netballers. It's on the 17th if i'm not wrong. Weeheeee. k bye

beyond expectation

2010-06-01T13:06:00.004+08:00

I-AM-VERY-VERY-VERY-VERY-VERY-EXHAUSTED. Today's training wasnt that bad...until he passed by. Yeah i know, what's the point thinking of someone who wouldnt bother to think about you but i feel so moody whenever i see you now. Arghhhhh, life. Ok whatever. Aft training slacked for awhile in school to do the bips thingy. Argh now i have no mood to post alr k bye

lies

2010-05-31T22:19:00.004+08:00

Hey c'mon if i were to choose i wouldnt want to fall in love like hello after getting hurt who would want to fall in love again. But no one can control their feelings towards someone and if i could wish for one thing maybe i wish i will never ever ever want to fall in love until i'm mature enough to think for myself and my future.

You might actually find my blog looks more like a personal diary nowadays as i've been expressing my feelings and throw my anger here but well i feel good after posting everything here telling the world how sad or angry i am. I'm done for today, goodnight.

insecure

2010-05-31T13:13:00.004+08:00

These feelings which i'll never ever ever will share with anyone. I'm too weak to let people know how weak i am. I've been lying towards my own feelings and yeah. I act as though i'm the strongest when actually i'm not. But maybe to me its better to keep everything to myself.

There's netball training tmr and i will come to forget about everything. I shud enjoy my life like c'mon Hidayah life moves on.

Hmm i shud say that i miss my old self.

K bye.

2010-05-30T13:25:00.002+08:00

Yeah true. You can hardly ever ever heard of a guy getting dump and hurt so badly. It's probably more to girls. Yeah girls are emotional.
Well anw, this is only gonna be a short post. Just wanna share that two words up there so i posted. Hmm btw, i am actually using another blog account. Not blogger. But some other website. But well i will still update here tho. Bye!

di antara kalian

2010-05-29T08:20:00.002+08:00

Tak ingin lagi rasanya ku bercinta

Setelah ku rasa perih

Kegagalan ini membuatku tak berdaya

Tak dapat lagi rasanya ku tersenyum

Setelah kau tinggal pergi

Biarku sendiri tanpa hadirmu kini lagi

I dont wanna make the same mistake twice. Never.

belahan jiwa

2010-05-28T09:52:00.003+08:00

Hi people. I dont know why but nowadays i dont really feel like blogging. Haish. Later going to Adillah's block and off to Tamp int. Aft that off to Pasir Ris Park. Class bonding. Not all going but well nevermind. Ohkay byeeee.

iloveyoumflforaslongasicould

2010-05-27T17:54:00.003+08:00

Every smile of yours makes my day.

MFL